blackbelt1961
Well-Known Member
I don't see it as a matter of who is right, Anthony or Val Wilmer.....
Both men are in need of our empathy. Anthony for finding his life unliveable, and Val for feeling anger at someone who chose to end his life , when, he (Val) had had to fight so hard to save his.
Suicide is the elephant in the room when it comes to suffering depression. Every episode can put you in such a dark place, that there is the fear that you won't get out of it. Nobody with depression wants to die - it's more a case of finding living unbearable.
That's why sufferers of depression - like me - are taught by therapists to have a "go to" plan when the black dog bites. You ring your therapist/psychiatrist who usually instructs you to increase your medication and your therapy visits.. I go for walks that are physically strenuous or I garden. (Being physically challenged seems to help). I cry a lot when depressed - so I tend to want to stay indoors - but I've learnt that only makes me worse. So I ring up a couple of close friends, tell them I'm not well, and arrange a visit - knowing that they both understand and care for me.
Now, this bit may shock you..... When you live alone, are getting on in years, you no longer have your partner, nobody lets you know that you're valued and loved much. When I'm depressed I feel worthless, useless and unloved. So I have found the quickest way to get over a depressive episode is to tell others that's how I'm feeling - and, if they can, would they say to me that they care and value me?
I would never have done this once - my pride would have prevented me doing so. But, here's the thing, a depressive episode outweighs pride.
A depressive episode is the worst thing you can experience - it's far, far worse than grief. With grief you still feel a sense of connection - connection to the one who has died, and connected to those who mourn with you.
Depression is about disconnection -trapped in your own painful world.
Thus, the way out of a depressive episode is to find the courage to open yourself up to others - as this is the surest way to re-establish connection.
A shift of focus is required. A shift that involves leaving your own disturbed feelings and thoughts and opening up to others.
Another thing that helps me -along the same lines - is being there for others.
After all, getting back to where I began, empathy for others that are doing it tough, is easily understood by those of us who find life difficult at times.
Thank you for sharing your experience , I feel for you and God loves you